What I Was Feeling The Night George Started Fighting With Me

I was feeling the complete opposite I feel when I'm with Tom. I felt terrified because I didn't know what George could do in his state of anger. Tom wasn't there to protect me either, I just felt so alone and knew it was all my fault. I was the mistress and had to realize Tom was still in love with his wife Daisy. I knew this the whole time but I had hope that somewhere in him, Tom loved me too just as much as I loved him. I know it seems really messed up that a man like him could love two women at once, but it was possible. I also felt angry that George was treating me this way. Even though I had fallen out of love with him, I thought for sure that he still loved me. Maybe he did, I won't ever know because everything just happened so quickly. I left from his grip he held onto me for way too long and just wanted to get away. I wanted to run away and never come back. Even if I didn't leave with Tom I didn't care. I just felt myself giving up on our fantasy life together. I was so distraught I wasn't thinking anything logical at the time. I just wanted the pain to go away.

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