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What I Was Feeling When Tom Hit Me And Broke My Nose

When we had a party with Nick, Catherine, and the McKees, Tom did something that I never thought he'd do. He backhanded me and it was so forceful that it broke my nose. At the time I didn't think my nose would be completely broken but it was. In some ways, the reason he hit me was my fault. I was mad at him and began to taunt him about Daisy, his wife. I'm not sure why I was thinking about them together but it made me really mad. He asked me to stop talking about her and bringing her name up in our conversation, but I couldn't help myself. It just kept coming out over and over. Next thing I knew, he swung his hand back at my face. I was really shocked at first, not believing he would ever do that to me. He never lost his temper in front of me before, let alone in front of my sister and other friends. I was embarrassed, so I burst into tears and called him a psycho. I thought he loved me, and wouldn't want to harm me in any way. I guess I was wrong. I didn't know...

What I Was Thinking When I First Met Tom On The Train

It was just a normal day. I was taking the train and relaxing in my seat, going to see my sister in New York City. There was a man across from me in the other seat. He was dressed very nicely, he was wearing a dress suit and patent leather shoes. I was instantly attracted to him, no sign of George in my mind. I loved the way this man presented himself, it shows how rich he probably is. I couldn't stop looking at him and into his eyes. I had to know his name. We didn't speak for a while he just moved next to me and I could feel his arm against mine. As much as I loved his appearance, I did kind of feel uncomfortable. I told him I would call the police, but he could tell I was just saying that to get a rise out of him. I started to think about my life if I had married a man like that. A man who was in control and had power, a man who probably had the most lovely house in all of New York. I wanted to be with a man like that. I didn't want to live the life I have with George, h...

What I Was Thinking When I Ran Into The Road

I wasn't thinking at all. I was too upset to have the right state of mind from my fight with George. I know I said I didn't care about Tom, but I started seeing his car come down the road. He was going really fast, and I don't know why he was speeding. I called his name over and over to get him to stop. He wouldn't, and I didn't understand, I'm sure he heard me. This was the man who I truly loved, and made me feel alive again. I knew I couldn't feel that ever again with George, as sad as it sounds. I changed my mind about wanting to leave without Tom, he was the love of my life. Every time I saw him, I knew he could be apart of my new life. I wanted to start a new life because it has gone to complete shambles. I needed a change, because I've been living the same life and I want adventure. I love partying and having fun, Tom contributes to that life so much because he likes doing the same. I was thinking all this and got so distracted until I ran into Tom...

What I Was Feeling The Night George Started Fighting With Me

I was feeling the complete opposite I feel when I'm with Tom. I felt terrified because I didn't know what George could do in his state of anger. Tom wasn't there to protect me either, I just felt so alone and knew it was all my fault. I was the mistress and had to realize Tom was still in love with his wife Daisy. I knew this the whole time but I had hope that somewhere in him, Tom loved me too just as much as I loved him. I know it seems really messed up that a man like him could love two women at once, but it was possible. I also felt angry that George was treating me this way. Even though I had fallen out of love with him, I thought for sure that he still loved me. Maybe he did, I won't ever know because everything just happened so quickly. I left from his grip he held onto me for way too long and just wanted to get away. I wanted to run away and never come back. Even if I didn't leave with Tom I didn't care. I just felt myself giving up on our fantasy life t...

Why I Tried To Set Up Catherine with Nick

When I first met Nick, I thought he was a very kind and seemed like a good man. I did trust anyone that Tom brought around also, which also added to my liking of him. I wanted my sister to find someone who was well put together and someone who was getting somewhere in life. I could tell that Nick was definitely trying his hardest and doing well in the bond business. My sister never really cared who I set her up with, she always had curiosity in meeting new people, especially young men. We had a party in New York City and we all got pretty drunk. When Catherine first met Nick, she liked him from the start. But as we had a party, I saw them together having fun and they seemed happy together. I have to say Nick is very outgoing when he is around new people who want to have fun. Catherine and Nick never ended up together because Nick found a new love interest, Jordan Baker. Jordan was someone who was opposite of Nick and I never understood what he saw in her. My sister was perfect! But I d...

Why I Didn't Tell George About Tom

I never told George about Tom or where the fancy pearls came from because I was scared. I know how stupid it sounds to say I was scared to tell George, but it's the truth. He was a man that I had loved for almost half of my lifetime, but things quickly changed after a while. George wasn't the same man that I knew when I married him. When we got married I knew him as a kind and loving man who I thought would always be there to protect me. But as time went on, he became very hostile, and would sometimes show abuse. I couldn't believe that he changed so drastically and I never understood why. I feel that he had many emotions he kept to himself and bottled up inside him. I knew he still loved me, but my love had faded because we didn't click like we used to. When I met Tom, I started to feel the emotions I had when I first met George. I felt happy and bubbly again. I knew that cheating on my husband and becoming Tom's mistress was wrong, but I couldn't stop myself....